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Wednesday, April 7, 2010

April 7, 2010

Today was another day where not much was happening in Benjamin's little world. No x-rays, no MRI and limited blood draws. He was dropped down to 1.5 mcg of fentanyl and so far doesn't seem agitated so he's not showing any signs of withdrawal. He's still very sleepy and continues to spell frequently and have an extreme brady here and there. It's hard not to focus on the monitor when his heart rate starts plummeting or his oxygen saturation drops. The nurses keep telling us that the monitor is not a tv screen, but you just can't help staring at it especially when it starts beeping which happens pretty much every minute.

I'm hoping I'll get to Kangaroo hold with him soon. We were so close at South Shore Hospital until he got really sick and now they want his tummy to heal a little more before resting against me. I just want to hold my little man! I know it's crazy, but sometimes I think he's not really sure who I am anymore because we haven't been able to connect since he's been out of utero.

Jadyn came to see him today for the second time. His nurse was so nice and lowered his isolette which gave her a better view of her little brother. She thought that was very cool and it's adorable to watch her talk to him!

1 comment:

  1. I'm glad he's still healing sweetie. So awesome that Jadyn got to see and talk to him. That must have been so sweet and touching. Hopefully you'll get to kangaroo him very soon. Love you!